Hi, here are some thoughts.

• I am disappointed in myself for not starting Panache-Ganache things. But, better late than never? If I am being honest, I am scared of my filter. There are VERY few real Panache people that I know. I am worried I won’t be able to do it for a long time. But then, I need just one to start. And then one more at at time to continue. How hard could it be? PLUS, I could stop at a number. Not everything HAS to be a super long-term thing. (Yes, this was AK-to-AK pep-talk in action.)
• College is the latest happening in my life. I don’t have a problem, really. Takes a bunch of time from my day that I’d use to for DD or random little projects but I think I can manage most of it. And I’ll also have to live with it: not being around so much. I will do however much I can and be honest about it.
• Last few days my eyes have been, well, not-so-great. Need to get myself checked and get a new pair of glasses ASAP. I tend to leave things for later a lot. Not anymore. I have found my secret system around that I will not tell the Internet YET.
• I want to learn some French and German. A-Levels. Wondering if I want online or offline classes. Until I figure how to fit it in my day, Duolingo shall be my best bud. Every time I am cribbing about Bom traffic in a rickshaw, I go on the app play with Tochters and Brots. Two day streak so far, have learnt some 54 words. Shall keep updating.
• My favorite physics rule applied in real life: μs>μk. Static friction is greater than kinetic friction. It is easier to continue doing something once you’ve started it. Took a break from LinkedIn content and have been struggling getting back to it. Will write something – ANYTHING – and push it out tomorrow. Promise. Oh wait, I know what I want to talk about: The bottom-line of all my classes.
• Got a notification on my phone and got distracted. How did I bring this brain from a-book-a-day focus to this goldfish attention span. Phew. Not a problem for today. Today, I choose to be superlative. Adi showed me this Nike ad today, very cool. It was reminder really, to shoot for the biggest, brightest star.
• So, on that ad. With college now, I keep coming across many different ads and communication every day. Plus, the general world throws ample things my way. There is so much clutter in the present plus accumulated bad ads from the past, nothing really sticks in my head. So, don’t ask me what my favourite brand or ad-film or campaign is. BUT sometimes I see things SO GOOD that I get mini-jealous and a mini-sad. When and how do I get my brain to think so smart, so witty, so clear, so real, so GOOD. Most people tell me I’ll get there in due time but I am restless. I can not wait for time. WHAT DO I DO TO BEAT TIME? HOW DO I SUPERPOWER MY WAY THROUGH? Why can I not be the smartest 21 year old there is? GAH. At 22, I want to feel like the smartest 22 year old that exists. Let’s make that happen, whatever it takes.
• Music. Okay I will shut up about it BUT I will tell you this: A Million Dreams and Daisies and We Grew Up at Midnight and George Ezra and Last Call and Auld Lang Syne and oh god, I need to shut up.
• In multimedia production, they’re making us write stories and change that to screenplay and it’s quite fun. You’ve think a lot and do everything on your own. Overwhelming, a little, sometimes, but good challenge. I do not take any pressure to write a good story or a script. I freewheel pro max with it. I am not great with stories and movies and things. I do not intend to be. With this, being fairly okay is okay with me. (Should it be though? Do I need to not settle for being basic and be the best at everything? Or try to be? Or is trying my best enough? But who says trying my best will not mean I work my way to being the best? OH GOD MY BRAIN WILL BREAK. Phew.) What do you think, dear reader, is this fine?
• Started watching Godfather again today. Couldn’t finish. But I want to be Don Carleone. And mama Carleone too. And I want people to sing Che La Luna at my wedding. Or a wedding-themed birthday party.
• I am alone tomorrow. Need to find something to not have me break my head. I hate how I still hate the idea of coming home to empty houses and being alone for long. It is just too sad for me. Too lonely. TOO SOMETHING.
• I want to wake up early tomorrow. And do something. Femela logo. Make me a college excel. Call AC. Read Economic Times and make notes. Write a LinkedIn post. Get me a Google One account. And more. Shall not make to-do lists here. 7:30 AM. Promise.

See you, dear reader.

Love,

AK!

Fun fact: The featured image is of a boat on Lake Como. I am quite obsessed with Como lately.